Being amazing at who you are

Those of you following along know that I have fallen head-first into an overwhelming fascination with the character of Kurt Hummel on Glee.  

In some ways, watching the show makes me feel wistful - I was a theater and music kid, too, and I miss singing and having that audience and accolades. Even more than that, though, having Kurt's character be "weird" and, in the beginning of the season, not conventionally attractive, gives me permission to be weird and still completely awesome.

This feeling has started to be thrown a bit, because as of Season 1 Episode 15-ish he's starting to look much more conventionally attractive, which, while definitely nice to look at, I don't feel like I am so much. Like, of course it's easy for him to do what he wants; he's totally good-looking anyway. In the beginning he's completely adorkable.

I can still embrace my inner weirdness and put myself out there every day with confidence, and I'll be way better off than feeling bad about myself.

It's easy to get 'meta' on these thoughts, in ways that I don't have answers for yet. Such as:
Why is it so important for me to be seen as attractive to others?
Why do accolades feel so important?
What do I gain from being "pretty"?
Why do I need everyone to like me?

But. My awesome new 20-lace boots have arrived, and I'm rocking a killer scarf today. :)