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" (I)f you've practiced directing your attention through meditation or training the mind in some other way that works for you, you will likely be more capable of redirecting your focus to something you'd prefer to be thinking about. And the more skilled you are at that, the better you'll be at holding your gaze on those things or bringing it back when it strays, which it will. If you're someone who has the tendency to obsess, worry, or otherwise get carried away by the incessant fluctuations of the mind, the capacity to do this is life altering. "

" Letting go doesn't happen on demand. That's because willpower is not a medicine and it does not heal wounds. "



Idea - using this book for book divining.
Also, check out - Queen of Wands; Nine of Pentacles, Two of Swords, &etc

These notes are from 'Tarot for Change: Using the Cards for Self-Care, Acceptance, and Growth'


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 "(T)he rare moment is not the moment when there is something worth looking at, but the moment when we are capable of seeing. ... I know that if (today's wonders of nature) seem fascinating and beautiful it is because I am ready to look, not because they are more ready than always to be looked at."

-Joseph Wood Krutch, in The Desert Year
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Her beauty is ancient,
Her wisdom, of old,
Her wealth, unmeasured
in silver and gold.

Her smile is a diamond,
a light from above
that fills those who know her
with joy and with love.

Her eyes seem all-knowing, 
a gleam in the sun.
They sparkle with knowledge,
They glitter with fun.

They peer through the shadows 
'Til all becomes clear, 
and the truth is revealed 
at the end of all fear.

She dances through forests
upon leaves of gold.
She dances with snowflakes 
through wind and through cold.

She dances through flowers
on rich fertile ground.
In sunshine, in warmth, 
She dances around.

The night-time holds secrets
But so does the day
She knows there are mysteries.
She won't turn away.

So ever she searches,
Ever to find
Herself in the heavens
And the truth of all time.

-Suzie Brucker Heiney
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 What can I say by Mary Oliver

What can I say that I have not said before?
So I’ll say it again.
The leaf has a song in it.
Stone is the face of patience.
Inside the river there is an unfinishable story
   and you are somewhere in it
and it will never end until all ends.

Take your busy heart to the art museum and the
   chamber of commerce
but take it also to the forest.
The song you heard singing in the leaf when you
   were a child
is singing still.
I am of years lived, so far, seventy-four,
and the leaf is singing still.

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...the blue of the sky falls over me

like silk, the flowers burn, and I want
to live my life all over again, to begin again, 

to be utterly
wild.

(from 'A Meeting' in American Primitive)
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MAY

May, and among the miles of leafing, 
blossoms storm out of the darkness --
windflowers and moccasin flowers. The bees
dive into them and I too, to gather
their spiritual honey. Mute and meek, yet theirs 
is the deepest certainty that this existence too --
this sense of well-being, the flourishing
of the physical body -- rides 
near the hub of the miracle that everything
is a part of, is as good
as a poem or a prayer, can also make
luminous any dark place on earth.

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(anx) 
You're losing control, she told herself. Stop.
The sun shines. Feel its heat on your skin. Follow that back. Let your lungs fill, let blood do its job. 



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 "The Green Man is a symbol of rebirth in nature, and (...) the rebirth of the soul. (...) Like forests and grasslands, people can suffer fire and drought. They forget why they're here, what they really love, what's important to them. The Green Man says that everything regrows, that it's never too late to figure out who you are and why, and do something about it." 

-- Emma Bull, in The Green Man: Tales from the Mythic Forest


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 "M was fortunate because he saw everything as if it were a fortuitous bounty."


This book and especially the character of Marx touched me deeply. These crazy bright young people were born into the world at the same time I was, give or take only a year or two. Openheartedness and love and getting back up when things are awful. Every day is a new day. 
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Concepts: 
  • Feelings, and the consciousness of feelings (pain, fear, and more) is located not in the mind, but in the body. 
  • Your body's "premotor" area activates unconsciously /before/ your every conscious decision. !!!
  • The knowing and understanding of situations is in the body.  (Not the mind.) 

If negative thoughts or high emotion:
1. Notice the *physical* sensations.
2. Experience it as it is. Without analysis or judgment.  
3. By noticing it in this way, it can diffuse. 

"Reality: It's not what you think!" lol

What are the things you want to feel?
What are the *physical* manifestations of those?
Do that, to feel them. 
Elation, Triumph, Joy; Deep well-being & belong; Wonder

To look up:
Alexander technique
Exercises from this book p293-303, p114-131.

One of the causes of lasting trauma is tonic immobility (related to "freeze", catatonia, fright paralysis). Therefore: 
1. Complete the movement. Physically
2. Un-paralyze yourself if you can -- move, physically.
3. Remove yourself physically from the source of grief or fear. 
You are *NOT* trapped. The trauma comes from feeling trapped. But you are *NOT* trapped.  How do you do the above? 
1. Get to relative safety
2. Accept sensation. Self-soothe. 
3. Pendulum = Rhythm. You'll start to understand that terrible feelings will not last forever. Come into equilibrium / balance - which is an action, a movement, a rhythm, not a fixed point.
4. Soothe the vagus nerve. This is the deepest level of your body's response. 

Feeling     Response        System      Result
Danger     Fight-or-Flight    Adrenal       Anx
Doom*       Immobilization   Vagus      Dissociation etc

* could be actual physical doom (certainty of threat of death), *or* intense and unremitting stress  !!!

We evolved to be in our bodies, to feel the most alive in full embodiment. 
In modern life, we try to counter this by pouring energy into our thoughts.
But this does not work. 
What does work is being full in our body, and feeling feelings as they arise.
Then worry goes down,  creativity goes up, sense of purpose goes up. 

So how can you be physically in the real world? 
- Gardening, Yoga, Painting, or ?? 
- Immerse yourself in your body - participation, flow, immersive, something that consumes your full mind & body. 



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Kant -- "There's possible, and then there's ... what's beyond possible."

"The lines converged. Not by accident, not by physics, but by--intent. Will. Care. Love."

"Sarah loved her. Loved June. Loved Ramon, and Ish. And she'd loved Sal. All those wonderful kids. Even herself." 

"Trust yourself. What other choice do you have?" 

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... (when she learned) not to be afraid of storms, of shadows, of sounds in the night. 


 (S)he wakes, and sees the pink and orange dawn against the clouds, or hears the lament of a lone fiddle, the music and the melody, and remembers there is such beauty in the world. And she does not want to miss it -- any of it. 



- VE Schwab in 'The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue'

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TONS of great stuff here, and this passage is just so good. Worth reading the whole book though. Highly recommend.
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Patience

The next paramita is patience, which is greatly misunderstood. The colloquial expression is that patience is a virtue, and virtue is grace. But patience is not necessarily a virtue, and patience doesn't particularly belong to the category of virtue or goodness. Patience actually belongs to the category of what is absolute and true, rather than the category of virtue, or grace -- whatever that may be.  

It's truth we're talking about when we talk about patience. The truth seems like a very big topic, and everybody becomes very serious as soon as we begin to discuss it. Nobody will smile. But truth from this point of view is reality, reality that can be worked with, reality that is experiential, and reality that does not need any reinforcement. Absolute reality stands on its own, and likewise patience stands on its own. 

You don't have to be patient just because you've been taught to be patient, or you feel it would be good to have patience. (...) Patience here is very direct and very definite. It's no a question of trying to be good, or trying to be virtuous, but patience according to (Buddhism) is nonaggression. Nonaggression is the patience. 

When we talk about aggression here, we are not talking about losing your temper and suddenly blowing up. Rather we are talking about aggression in the sense of a constant flow of experience in your life, which contains constant little flickers of aggression here and there. We don't like certain things that are presented, or certain things we experience, yet we get caught up in that. Nobody told us to do this, but we do it. And we have /opinions/ of ourselves, certain expectations of ourselves, and if those expectations are not met -- if our hot tea is cold and if our iced tea is hot -- we get made. If we are bold enough we ask to speak to the manager. That is aggression. 

I'm not saying that our iced tea should be hot or that our hot tea should be cold. I think you are intelligent enough not to take this too literally. However, there is continual aggression that takes place based on expectations. And expectations are basically aggressive. We expect something. We want to get something out of it. That's not very generous, and it's not open. There's a sense of aggression all the time. 

Basically we're very sensitive, even if we regard ourselves as tough. We are softened by our ego when we meet little irritations here and there. When we expect something to go smoothly, and it doesn't, we are devastated. Before we get something we want, we begin to shape ourselves. We do this constantly. If we want an espresso, for example, between the time we order it from the waiter and when we get it, we soften ourselves. We shape ourselves into "an espresso coffee drinker." We /become/ that way. We give in, we are softened, and if we don't get what we expected, if something is the slightest bit wrong with our espresso, we attack. 

This process extends in great detail to all kinds of things: we push a button, we shape ourselves, and make ourselves soft very aggressively, expecting we are going to get something out of it. When we don't, we have already worked out our plan of attack, our demands. That is nondiscipline and nonpatience. The highest form of patience is nonaggression, nonexpectation. Patience does not contain expectation. 

That doesn't mean that one has to become a robot, or a stone wall. We have some sense of intelligence and openness, as well as a sense of continuity. Our whole life is based on patience, not expecting anything, while being prepared for everything. 
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You will always struggle with not feeling productive until you accept that your own joy can be something  you produce. It is not the only thing you will make, nor should it be, but it is something valuable and beautiful. 

You [humans] (are) radically collaborative, profoundly empathetic, and deeply communal. Everyone who tells you anything different is selling the fear that is the only thing that can break that nature. (D)o not let anyone do (that) to you. 

(T)he most sophisticated software in existence is tasked with figuring out how to keep you from leaving a website. That software knows all of your weaknesses, and while it's only concentrating on individuals, exploiting individual weakness is also exploiting societal weakness. What that software wants to do is make us into people who are easier to predict. These algorithms are already programming society. 

What does a single CEO with the power to remake the world do? Do they help us overcome climate change? Do they help us progress toward a just and stable society? Or do they just make money? 

Maybe we just need to connect and care for one another. 

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Real sounds -- the gentle calm after it stops raining, soothing silence, the smell of damp sweet grass in the air. No radios or tvs running interference between our feelings and the world.  

Prayer is medicine, laughter is medicine, family is medicine, as is any person, place, or thing that reminds you of the sacredness of life and power of love. 
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 Concept: Previously, healing therapy was done at the cognitive or behavioral level. BUT  "Recent studies and discoveries increasingly point out that we heal primarily in and through the body, no just through the ratinoal brain. We can all create more room, and more opportunities for growth, in our nervous systems. But we do this primarily through what our bodies experience and do-- not through what we think or realize or cognitively figure out. 

Trauma is embedded in the body, no the cognitive brain. 

To counter the response of fighting, fleeing, or freezing, and become more curious, mindful, less reflexive: 
  • Ground. 
  • Tolerate emotional discomfort and stay present with it. (but NOT necessarily through cognitively re-hashing the trauma.) 

It's the vagus nerve of the nervous system in your body that you want to ground. (It is not connected to your brain.)

So how? 

  • Humming loudly
  • Slow rocking
  • Belly breathing
  • Rubbing the center of your breastbone, solar plexus, or belly
  • Rotating your joints 20 times: ankle 1 2, knees, hips, wrist, elbow, shoulder.
  • Om - ohhhh-ummmm-muhhhhh
  • Singing aloud
  • Chanting 
  • Breathe and think of a person, animal, or place that makes you feel safe & secure. 
  • Hold - Where does it seem uncomfortable, constricted, pain or distress? press your hand there. Then rub it. Then gently hold it. 
  • Hands - apply lotion to soothe your hands.
The basics: 
  • Enough sleep. Including afternoon naps.
  • Good nutrition
  • Enough water
  • Regular exercise
  • Simple pleasures that bring you joy (yoga, watching the sunrise, working in the garden, painting, taking a walk, etc)
  • Meditation, prayer, or chanting - 20-40 min ideally in the morning
To release the anx response you must do it PHYSICALLY. (This ties in with ACT but is the missing piece.) 
  • Exercise (or most sports) such as walking etc.
  • Dance
  • Physical work - yard work, etc
  • Shaking it out
  • Stop Drop & Roll - Stop the runaway thought or emotion. Drop back, pay attention, what are you experiencing? Where do you want it to go? Roll with whatever happens in your body without fighting, fleeing, or freezing.





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From How To Be A Person In The World

"I will not lose myself. ... I contain worlds ... I am doing my best to build a better world around me. I like pretty things but not the materialism that sometimes comes with them. I will resist this crack-infused world and do my best to make things that matter to me. I will not lose myself. " 

(are you good? are you lovable? are you enough?) 
You are here. Sit down. Feel your potential in this moment. You have accepted too little for too long. That is changing today. Breathe in. Draw a picture of yourself. Tape it to the wall, with the words "YOU ARE HERE". You are here. Cherish yourself. 

But because these (other) people have it a little easier than us, because they're not moving through molasses every few days, because they don' overthink things or feel crazy emotions they never intended to feel, because they can keep the world at arm's length and suspend their disbelief and run with the pack and be team players and all of the other stuff that our dim-witted, reductive culture demands, WE GET TO CALL OURSELVES ARTISTS.
I used to hate the world "artist" and hate anyone who had the supreme gall to call herself one. (...) I like calling myself an artist now for the same reasons I hated it before. (...) Some of us have no choice but to give ourselves a lot of space. When things get blurry and people are unkind to us, we have to stop and dwell in that blurry space. We have to experience the full brunt of an insult-- we have to swallow the bitterest pill, the sharpest words, ingest and metabolize these things until we're weak and wan-- in order to be strong. We have to welcome our clingiest, ugliest monster self into th room and love that sad, ugly monster dearly in order to one day be beautiful and generous and resilient. Yes, it sounds selfish, but it's also a route to being less selfish. Trust that. 

From 'Foreverland' -- 

Pessimism sprouts from dread, telling you that whatever comes next, it won't be good, or sweet, or relaxing. (...)
You banish dread by announcing: Whatever comes next, I will welcome it with an open heart. 



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Is your heart wide open? Are you loved? Can you stand still and feel it? 

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The ice ages and the habitats they altered had divided continental (bird) populations, pushing some to the west, some to the east, and in isolation they slowly transformed. .. I see fracture zones, north to south, separating western and eastern wood-pewees, western and eastern kingbirds, red-shafted and yellow-shafted flickers, lazuli and indigo buntings, black-headed and rose-breasted grosbeaks, spotted and eastern towhees, western and eastern meadowlarks, Bullock's and Baltimore orioles, and many more.  
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 "You must know I have no magic, not really."
"Of course you (do), mortal girl. A power claimed and challenged and thrice carried out is true; the proving makes it so."

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Conceptually - 

Water as miracle
A transcendent miracle, miraculous life, everything is the creation of water, of awe, of wonder, of mystery, of implausibility. Reverence. That springs are alive, the source of life, of emergence, where life comes out from the ground, the true treasure. The silent dark of a deep inner cave in the earth, total darkness, nothing of the earth or sun or fields, utterly nothing, and then a drop of water hitting the pool. "The first act of creation." 

"The only way to get across is to have the sole intention of finding water." 

Nature as creator
The curve of tinajas, more effective than anything made by a non-natural process. Waterpockets, a thousand wells on the sandstone. That each individual seep is like a metronome when measured. 

Ancient water trails
The pattern hundreds of years old in the desert, ancient waterways, of people who could walk to the ocean, when we could not today go a fraction as far, because they had the knowledge of where the water is and their paths followed that. 

Joy
Joy in the face of miracle, abundance, the creeks that appear from a dry creekbed at sunset, fish that are remnant of a glacier or pre-glacier time, or from before the Grand Canyon was carved.

THE WORLD IS A MIRACLE
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