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Jan. 2nd, 2011 07:49 pm* I saw a coyote while heading toward the creek yesterday! That is so totally cool.
(Warning, random girl-related insecurity issues ahead...)
* I saw a photo on FB of what I think is a photo of me in college, and I was completely beautiful. Which is newsworthy because I have lived my whole life feeling like I am not good enough, not beautiful enough, etc etc etc. And then every once in a while something will happen and I will see the me of the past unexpectedly, and feel that it was really such a travesty that I went through my days so miserably then (at least in the feeling-beautiful-enough regard), and that I SHOULD NOT BE MISERABLE NOW BECAUSE PROBABLY THE SAME EXACT THING IS GOING ON.
So, issues, I've got them, as do many of us, in our own idiosyncratic ways, but believe me when I tell you, You are beautiful/awesome/smart/successful, Today, Right Now. (And you will be even more so if you will JUST FREAKING ACT LIKE IT.)
(Warning deux: more girl-related stuff ahead...)
* Completely unrelated to the above: PMS is totally real. Now that my life is more even-keel, it is very easy to notice. I am completely wacked out 1-2 days a month, devastated and angry, miserable, raging and inconsolable. For no reason. And then I'm fine. How does fifty percent of the population live this way? It's ridiculous!
(Warning, random girl-related insecurity issues ahead...)
* I saw a photo on FB of what I think is a photo of me in college, and I was completely beautiful. Which is newsworthy because I have lived my whole life feeling like I am not good enough, not beautiful enough, etc etc etc. And then every once in a while something will happen and I will see the me of the past unexpectedly, and feel that it was really such a travesty that I went through my days so miserably then (at least in the feeling-beautiful-enough regard), and that I SHOULD NOT BE MISERABLE NOW BECAUSE PROBABLY THE SAME EXACT THING IS GOING ON.
So, issues, I've got them, as do many of us, in our own idiosyncratic ways, but believe me when I tell you, You are beautiful/awesome/smart/successful, Today, Right Now. (And you will be even more so if you will JUST FREAKING ACT LIKE IT.)
(Warning deux: more girl-related stuff ahead...)
* Completely unrelated to the above: PMS is totally real. Now that my life is more even-keel, it is very easy to notice. I am completely wacked out 1-2 days a month, devastated and angry, miserable, raging and inconsolable. For no reason. And then I'm fine. How does fifty percent of the population live this way? It's ridiculous!
